Braving the Storm...Which Looks Like Rain

Hi all!

I cant believe 3 weeks have passed since I last updated the blog. I always feel like I just posted, but time always seems to go so quickly! I think I still must have vegetable brain from finals. Well nothing too crazy has gone on the last few weeks. Dad has gotten to play some golf, although it's finally starting to get chilly here in AZ so he hasn't been playing as much. My cousin Blake(sta) came into town this weekend so we got to catch up with him Thursday for dinner, of course we forgot to take a picture. Friday Dad had all of his scans to see how the clinical trial was going. They are so great up there at Scottsdale Health Care, we were in and out in no time!

Saturday Dad and Cindy went to the Southwest Christmas party. Dad looked so handsome! Here is the only picture he took (I swear, we only take pictures because I force everyone to).

Dad and Jackie

Uncle John came into town on Sunday, finallllyyyy! We have missed him! Its always good to have him in town for the appointments, even when I know it's an excuse for him and Dad to play lots of golf :)

Well TGen was great in a quick return on the scans. We got the results Monday and Dr. Weiss let us know that unfortunately the clinical trial is no longer working. The tumors have collectively grown 20% since we started in October, meaning that we are no longer eligible to participate in the trial. Dr. Weiss was so surprised because Dad has been feeling the best he has in a year. Dr. Weiss went over a few options and asked us what we wanted to do. Dad kind of chuckled and said "I don't care we want to do what you think is best!"

On January 4 Dad will get another Biopsy on the adrenal tumor (which contains the same cancerous cells as the lung tumor). It will take two weeks to process, but the lab will look at which chemos will specifically target Dad's tumors. While those are being processed, we will be going back to MD Anderson to see Dr. K. There, Dad will receive a chemo drug called Taxotere. When the test results come back they will figure out whether the Taxotere, another chemo drug, or a different clinical trial is going to give Dad the best possible results.

While we were processing everything we were joking about what is going to happen when we go back to MD Anderson. 1. Do you think they will give us a new Nurse Navigator? 2. If not, Dad is going to give Jill the "I'm baaaacckkkkkkk" and "I'm watching you" look. No words necessary. It will be interesting, but it will be so great to see Christine and Juanita again!

I could tell the nursing staff had a hard time saying bye to Dad, naturally...they LOVE him there. I think they would hire him on if they could.

Dad and Katie

Dad with the TGen nursing staff

Obviously this is not news any of us wanted to hear. When I started to update the blog Dad suggested the title, which is true. Cancer is such a bumpy road with so many ups and downs and what feel like dead ends. But all we can do is have faith in God's plan and look forward to the next plan the doctors have for us. We are still so blessed to have options and multiple doctors working hard for Dad's survival.

When we got done with the appointment Monday I went to In & Out for lunch. When I got to the window to pay the the attendant let me know the car in front of me had paid for my meal and I immediately broke down in tears. It was just one more reminder of how much good there is in the world and to continue to stay positive for that very reason

Until the 4th, we are going to enjoy a wonderful Christmas season together! Kristen and I are finally done with the semester so we are excited to be able to spend more time as a family! Thank you for your continued prayers, have a very merry Christmas from all of us!

Give Thanks

Hi all! I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and you are all recovering from your turkey comas! We had such an incredible Thanksgiving and it was so nice to be able to spend it together. We had, and continue to have, so much to be thankful for this year and I could list everything but it would be a novel. Three things I am especially thankful for are 1. Dad's health through this cancer and his amazing ability to continually stay so positive and bring humor to a scary situation. He inspires me everyday! 2. The amazing support we have from God, our family, friends, and staff at TGen. None of where we are today would be possible without them. 3. The ability to spend time together. Our family has always loved being together, going to dinners, movies, and all of that fun stuff but the last year has been really nice taking that extra time to be with each other!

We went to church in the morning and then I hosted dinner at my apartment... and I will just tell you all now, I have extreme appreciation for those who host dinner parties for large amounts of people/families! The timing of the oven items alone is truly an art, so cheers to all you kitchen masters! Poor Dad had to get a root canal the night before and had a hard time eating, but he still managed of course!

Dad feasting

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Things at TGen have been going great. The chemo days have been getting shorter and shorter and next week he will be done by lunch! Dad has made friends with I am pretty sure everyone who works there now and they all love him. When we were there yesterday for an exam I heard one of the nurses says "OJ is here!" to another nurse which just made me smile and reminded me of how great of an impact Dad has on peoples' lives. We will scan again on the 14th of December and will get the results that following Monday so until then we are just taking it day by day!

Dad, Kristen, and I have been able to see a few movies lately (honestly I have seen more movies with them in the last 4 months than I have seen combined in the last 3 years) and one that you all MUST see is Life of Pi! What an incredible movie, I think it was one of Dad and I's all time favorites! I could babble about it forever, so instead I will just recommend that you go see it. This is one of my favorite quotes from the movie which seemed to be so fitting to our lives:

“I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unnerving ease. It begins in your mind, always ... so you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.”

Most of the time when I write the blog, it is like a giant puzzle. Writing papers were never my forte in school so figuring out the flow of the post sometimes takes me longer than necessary. I can tell it is the end of the semester because all I want to do at this point is put everything else in a miscellaneous section instead of finishing it off smoothly...and that is what I am going to do :) Love you all!

Before going to see Lincoln a few weeks ago

 Dad got to go to Kathy Schieb's party last week and had a ton of fun catching up with friends from work!

Dad and Bev

Dad and Kathy

Beating the Odds

hello hello! Well Dad has been doing GREAT since the first chemo! It's like he hasn't had chemo at all it's amazing! Last week Dad had an appointment with Dr. Weiss on Monday. No one was going to be able to go but sneaky me went and surprised him. We talked movies with the nursing staff while getting his blood work done and then we met with Dr. Weiss. It was a short appointment but Dr. Weiss was very pleased with how Dad was doing. He reiterated that we continue on the path that we are on until December 13th (I think...) when we rescan and then we will go from there. Obviously good results showing no growth will allow him to continue with the DKK drug and if there is growth then we will get a biopsy and send the tissue to the lab for another chemo option.

Last week Dad went on the annual golf trip he goes on with Uncle John and his friends. They were there Wednesday-Saturday and had so much fun. Since I love tooting Dad's horn, he played AWESOME. He shot in the 60's the whole week and one day was 5 under par! (Insert the song "Can't Touch This")

Uncle John & Dad

The group

Today was Dad's second chemo. It went really well and they even gave Dad offsite privileges! Around 1030 they came in and told us we could come and go as we please until 430 when Dad had to be back for blood work. We were all a little surprised and I honestly forgot to ask why they didn't need to do blood work every two hours this time but we weren't complaining! Before we left for lunch, Joy the poodle came by and paid us a visit. She was very nice and I hope she comes back next time :)

Other than that I really don't have much to report. Dad and I had breakfast on Sunday and we were talking about how it has already been 11 months since he was diagnosed. We smiled and said "beatin the odds" while we "pounded it". We really have been so blessed by God to have Dad in such wonderful health. I know with all my heart God is guiding our path for good and is creating miracles in our life everyday. Thank you for supporting us while we continue to fight and see the good in this situation. Love you all, now go get your vote on!!

LASTLY- My sister Kristen was accepted into Teach for America last week!!!!!!!!! I cannot even explain how incredibly proud we are of Kristen!!!!!!! She will be based in South Carolina for two years starting next fall. Being accepted is such an honor, only 7-11% of applicants get accepted! We cannot wait to see the opportunities this brings her, we know she is going to change so many lives! Congrats Kristen!

Life in a Clinical Trial

Well if you didn't guess by the blog title, Dad got into the clinical trial!! After three days of tests, blood draws, and MRI's last week they gave Dad the go ahead to start on Monday. After looking over all of his scans everything looked good! No cancer has spread to the bones and the lung and adrenal tumor have not changed as far as they can tell in comparison to the last scan we did...gosh 10 weeks ago already!? Time is really flying by.

Monday was day 1 of the trial which started at 7am. They immediately started blood work and EKG's. At 9 Dr. Weiss and his whole team came in to do exams and got Dad set up to do the chemo using his port. Dad said it was like a scene from MASH with everyone in the room, 8-9 people in that little room! The chemo itself is only 30 minutes! The rest of the day is spent waiting for them to be able to do blood work and EKG's. They wait a precise amount of time (and I mean to the minute) in between each test in order to measure how the chemo is circulating through his body and to make sure it isn't doing anything it isn't supposed to. We spent the day watching a sci fi channel marathon of a show I can't remember the name of and NCIS. Everyone was really nice and Dad already has a best friend at TGen named Brian...but I know no one is surprised :). Although the treatment days are 9 hour days we all agreed they didn't seem like the 9 hour days we had at MD Anderson. I think this trial is going to be a cake walk for Dad!

This is Dad getting his EKG (look at that 6pack)

Dad goes back to TGen for blood and EKG's Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday during this week. Next week he will go back just one day for some testing and then the process starts over the following week so he will get his next chemo Monday November 5th. So far no side effects and we really don't expect Dad to have any. Dad is feeling the best he has felt in a really long time and for that we are soo blessed!! Today him and Cunningham are playing golf and enjoying the beautiful weather we are having here in Phoenix!

Hotties!

I feel like so much has gone on the last week but my brain could easily be compared to a scrambled egg right now (hence the jumbled blog post). So for now know treatment is great, Dad is amazing, and we are so blessed by all of the family, friends, and prayers around us. Love you all!

Adventures at TGen

Hello hello! 

Well TGen called this week and we had our appointment with Dr. Weiss yesterday! It was nice to have such a quick turn around on getting the appointment set up after this last month of waiting! The first thing I noticed is that there are giant stuffed animals everywhere...coming out of the elevator I ran into three human size animals and then giraffes on my left...It was quite interesting to say the least! 

Once all the paperwork was finished we were taken back to the consultation room while Dad got his vitals taken...fatty is two pounds heavier than he was last week! Can I get a woot woot!

After a little bit of waiting Dr. Weiss came in. He is very nice and much younger than I expected. He started off by asking Dad some background questions that weren't in his chart and gave him some tough love on quitting smoking. After all the nitty gritty questions Dr. Weiss left the room for a few minutes and then came back with the options Dad has.

1. Chemo with Cisplatin Alitma and Avastin- Dad has already done this treatment so we wont be doing this one
2. Tarceva which was the drug I was telling you about last time. After some research last week Dad decided that he didn't want to do the tarceva due to the side effects. The biggest one of concern was the severe rash you get from the waste up. It gives you really bad pus filled bumps and just does not sound fun at all!
3. Send Tissue to a lab called Caris to test for what chemo would actually work for Dad (I had no idea they could do this! Pretty cool) We decided to do this one at a later date if needed becauseeeeee
4. There is a study called DKK1 that we are going to do! Here are the details:
•  Dad has to get a bunch of tests done (MRI's, CT scans, bone scans, bloodwork ect) first. If he passes all of the tests then he will be able to start the trial. The MRI is to see if there is a pre-existing hip bone condition because the DKK gene is found in bones and the drug can change bone structure. (That was only seen in animals no humans so far). 
• If he passes then he will start the trial the following week (the 22nd or 23rd of October). The first day is a 10 hour day! The do exams, labs, and obviously the drug infusion where they really monitor the metabolism of the drug and how it is interacting with Dad. Without going too much into what days he has to be there I will say the schedule is really strict and if he misses a day he would be kicked of the trial. Dad has perfect attendance though so I am not too worried :).
• Every two weeks he will have a 10 hour day where he will get the IV infusion of the drug with labs and tests in between.
• The study runs for 12 weeks and after 8 they will rescan. If he is stable or the tumor is shrinking they will continue and if not he will be kicked off (that sounds so horrible doesn't it? Maybe I should use removed haha) the study. I am not 100% on this but I am pretty sure I understood that when the 12 weeks is over if he is still responding to the DKK drug he will no longer be in a trial but be able to receive the drug.
• Side effects: Nausea, vomiting, fatigue, diarrhea. Honestly nothing Dad didn't experience with the chemo. Dr. Weiss said that the side effects of this drug will most likely be less than his cisplatin chemo...I'd just like to remind you all Dad only had 2 days of side effects on his chemo so this drug sounds pretty darn good!

After a 30 second group discussion Dad decided to say yes to the study! This one can only do good and Dad will still be able to play golf and have the awesome quality of life that he does right now. We also asked Dr. Weiss what his prognosis is with and without treatment. This is a conversation we have all had with Dad this week because honestly its the tough question that we never asked and never came up in appointments. Dad has felt so great this whole processes with no real symptoms so we wanted to know what to look for and what he would probably experience. Bottom line only God has the answer to that question. Dr. Weiss said that in general stage 4 patients without treatment 50% will live 6 months and with treatment 50% will live 10 months. He said clearly Dad is an outlier just from how great he feels and that its already been 8 almost 9 months since his first treatment. The only thing they can predict is if its within a matter of days or weeks due to no eating, sleeping all the time, extreme pain ect.

So for now this is the plan! I know that was a lot to read so thanks for bearing with me. If you are a science nerd like me and want to read more about the study click here. Dad is feeling great, and has been putting his new golf clubs to use! We are so grateful for all of the prayers and support, many prayers have been answered this week and we are so blessed. Love you all!

Getting a tour of TGen

The infusion chairs

Dad's room for the 10 hour days! DVD player included...let the movie marathons begin

I turned around to Dad soaking up the sun after the appointment...it was FREEZING in there!

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The Results

Hi! Hope all is well with you all! 

I apologize for just getting this posted, I tried really hard but I think every time I sat down to write my phone rang or something came up :) Well the results finally came in this week and Friday morning we finally got to meet with Dr. K. We got checked in for Dad's 945 appointment and per usual all crammed in the small examining room. We waited about 45 minutes to see Dr. K and the whole time laughed while making jokes about why he was running behind (ex. pacing outside the room because he is so nervous to talk to our crazy family). Once Dr. K came in he deeply apologized and Dad was the first one to speak up and say that whats done is done and we are there to here the news not dwell on the past. I think Dr. K was a little relieved, but went right into saying that the results were not particularly good. 

Dads tumor cells do no have the egfr mutations that they were looking for. Why does this matter? Once chemo stops doing its job (In Dads case since the adrenal tumor wasn't shrinking) they go to a second kind of treatment called Tarceva. Tarceva directly targets the egfr mutations and since dad doesn't have those mutations Dr. K said it gives us three options:

1. The first is to do an old school form of chemo. Dr. K said he doesn't recommend it at all because it will severely diminish his quality of life. Dad is doing so well so we said PEACE OUT to that idea before he even finished talking about it :)
2. The second is to do the Tarceva anyway. There is no way to know that it wont work, and about 10% of patients without the egfr mutation see results using the Tarceva.
3. The second is to go to a hospital called TGen (The link takes you to their 411 on their website). TGen specializes essentially in clinical trials. They are the best of the best at what they do and Dr. K said he has a good friend over there that he would recommend us to.

We decided to go ahead and get all of Dad's info sent over so we can get a preliminary meeting started as soon as possible. Once we meet with Dr. Weiss at TGen, hopefully early this week, then we will decide from there what exactly we are going to do. 

Dr. K also wanted to get an X Ray of Dad's knees because they have been bothering him the last few weeks. The Xray would allow them to see if the irritation was cancer or something else. While he was doing that Jill came out and spoke with the rest of us and explained how sorry she was all that this happened (began tuning out here..). She assured us that she would be the one sending Dads info over to TGen and there would be no delays whatsoever...the rest isn't even worth writing about. The X Ray tech said he didn't see anything on the Xray which was awesome, hopefully Dad's knees feel better soon!

I will keep you all updated as we know more, but until then Dad is feeling great and looking forward to his new golf clubs that are coming this week :) Thank you as always for your continued prayers, we are so blessed to have the support team we do!

Finally got a picture with Juanita, one of our favorites at MD!

Dad and I had a really healthy feast last week- Fries, Motzarella Sticks, Milkshake, and a salad :)

Family date at the movies last weekend!

Never Alone

Well I am writing to you tonight a much calmer version of myself vs. the demon I felt (by felt I mean know) I was earlier this week. 

Remember how last week we were informed that the results would be in by Tuesday and we were to call to double check? Well Dad called Jill around noon Tuesday and she let him know she was going to find out and call him back. A few hours later Jennifer, who processes the lab send outs, called Dad to let him know that the results were not going to be in that day. She also informed him that the tests had been sent to a lab in California and would probably not be in until Wednesday afternoon or Thursday morning. This is when demon Layne took over...sorry to everyone that encountered me in any realm this week...

We were honestly all at a loss. After the glimpse of hope that Mike had given us last week about this being taken care of, well it was all out the window. Mom is good friends with the CFO of Banner and he had already been caught up on Dad's situation, but Mom asked him to wait to intervene until we saw how last week's communication with Mike played out. (Terrible run on sentence- forgive me Kristen) Tuesday, she asked him to intervene and boy was he on it. Within an HOUR all of the "key players" of MD Anderson were involved. Mike, the CEO of MD Anderson, Jeff, and every director of every department involved in the situation were working together to figure out what they needed to do to rectify the issue at hand.

This morning I had received a call from Mike. As always, we had a great conversation. He let me know how sorry he was this has happened and he knows that a million sorry's couldn't change what has happened. Unfortunately everything that could have gone wrong in this process did but he put together a timeline of events from the date of the biopsy through today. Here is the timeline that Mike emailed me:

9/5/12  -  O. J. Alexander’s procedure; the fine needle specimen was obtained.
9/10 /12 - Dr. Perry reviewed the case and additional stains were ordered.
9/12/12  - Dr. Pargman reviewed the case with special stains and upon discussion with Dr. Klueppelberg he asked for an EGFR and ALK by FISH  be sent out.
9/13/12  - The order was placed by Dr. Klueppelberg.  We must have an order to process the specimen for send out.   The blocks were requested to be sent to us from SQL for the additional testing.
9/17/12 - The blocks were received. The two tests are sent to Response Genetics laboratory in California and take approximately 10 days to 2 weeks to perform and get results returned to us at Gateway.
9/20/12 – Specimen taken to dock and sent via Fed Ex to Response Genetics
9/24/12 -  Fed Ex specimen pick up did not occur until this date.  Delay in pick up from Gateway dock under investigation.
10/3/12 – Results expected from Response Genetics.

He talked it through with me and we both agreed the communication was the biggest issue at hand. The timeline of events did NOT mirror what Jill had been communicating to us in the least bit. As we finished our conversation he let me know he really wanted to speak with Dad but wanted my input on how he was doing and if he wanted to talk. I literally laughed and told him Dad has been the most positive and non-crazy out of all of us! They spoke soon after our conversation and it went well. 

So back to the timeline. I must have read it 25 times now. Here are my issues:
1. I'm sorry (but really I'm not), but DO NOT tell someone something just to tell them. Which is what Jill has been doing the last month.
2. If you don't have the facts, be honest with your patient and own up to it. People appreciate honesty more than smoke being blown up their rear. 
3. Four days. Dad's specimen sat on the dock for. four. days...four days. Climate and time sensitive goods just sitting for four days. Hopefully those slides are good...

Ok demon Layne could go on for an hour about her frustrations but I will spare you. Bottom line is they truly got their crap together and we are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Dr. K called Dad right after he got off the phone with Mike. Dr. K apologized multiple times and Dad could hear the disappointment in his voice of all that had gone wrong through this. Dr. K said that next week the results will be in on the 3rd (as stated on the timeline) and we will meet with him on the morning of the 5th. Immediately following that appointment Dad will go up for treatment.

With all of the anger, frustration, and confusion the last few weeks have brought, I am so grateful to see that there are still people at MD Anderson that will drop what ever they are doing to assist the needs of a patient. The efforts of Mike and his team have really brought demon Layne down 5 notches and I think all of us are feeling a lot better now that we know exactly what is going on (for real this time). This last few weeks have really shown how united team-OJ is and how through the ups and downs Dad is never alone in this fight. We love you Daddy, fighting for you always!

Well, I have to be honest
As much as I want it
I'm not gonna promise the cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

-Lady Antebellum "Never Alone"